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[ It's hard to tell the exact moment that things really fall to the wayside, but the possibility of everyone getting out unscathed is shrinking by the second. They don't have a lot of time; he doesn't have a lot of time. Carl is just relieved that he was able to get everyone into the sewer and the Saviors are none the wiser.. he just really wished his dad were in Alexandria. It's probably for the best that he's not, or this may have escalated to a point of no return. Either way, he feels like he needs to actually try and resolve this before he can't anymore.
It's terrifying that he can feel death creeping up on him, sucking up his reserves of energy and making his stomach cramp and his chest tighten just a bit more. He's determined to push through, at least tonight. Here's hoping the rest of his plan works.
Looking down on Negan from behind the parapet, Carl thinks he reached some part of the man that got him to stop and think.
Was it supposed to be this way?
Is this who you wanted to be?
Taking a deep breath, Carl steels himself for the next part, silently hoping his dad doesn't hate him for what he's about to do. What he feels like he has to to end this stupid fucking war that's doing nothing but cause more death. They can't afford to lose anyone else. ]
Call off your men, send everybody back home.. and I'll surrender. I'll go with you, you can kill me or whatever you feel like you need to, but this has to end.
It's terrifying that he can feel death creeping up on him, sucking up his reserves of energy and making his stomach cramp and his chest tighten just a bit more. He's determined to push through, at least tonight. Here's hoping the rest of his plan works.
Looking down on Negan from behind the parapet, Carl thinks he reached some part of the man that got him to stop and think.
Was it supposed to be this way?
Is this who you wanted to be?
Taking a deep breath, Carl steels himself for the next part, silently hoping his dad doesn't hate him for what he's about to do. What he feels like he has to to end this stupid fucking war that's doing nothing but cause more death. They can't afford to lose anyone else. ]
Call off your men, send everybody back home.. and I'll surrender. I'll go with you, you can kill me or whatever you feel like you need to, but this has to end.
Drift Fleet Letters
Taako,
Hey boss. Sorry I didn't show up for work, you probably didn't worry too much, though. You'll do just fine without me because you're amazing at what you do. I really enjoyed the cooking lessons, I never really felt confident in the kitchen before, and you did that. For as much as I bitched and moaned at you for shit, I was never mad about it. I know that's how you show someone you like them, otherwise you'd have kicked my ass out by now.
I know you and your sister will take care of each other, but I'm going to miss you assholes, and I realize I never gave you a final decision on who the cooler twin was. Whoops, sorry about that. Wish I'd been able to learn magic and gotten to know the both of you more. You'll say it's sappy or gross, but I felt like you two were family, and I felt best when I was in the restaurant with you.
I really hope I get to see you weirdos again. Or.. anything, really. Fuck this shit, man.
P.S. You were starting to wear me down on that lip sync battle stuff. It could have been fun. :P
Carl
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Sora,
Thank you for being my friend. I always enjoyed being around you, and you always seemed to get me out of my head and remind me that there's light in most things. You're gonna do great whenever you get back home, and I know your friends are proud of you. I know I wasn't the easiest person to get to know, but you helped me start to trust people my age again. I didn't really have the best of luck making friends in my age group and you made it look so easy. I'm a little envious. I'll miss hanging out with you, and sorry we never got to go on that beach trip. I was looking forward to it.
Carl
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Natasha,
Thank you for everything. I know it's stupid and vague to say, but there's really no other way for me to describe it. You've honestly been the most consistent person in my life since I got to the Fleet, and I could never repay you for everything you've taught me. You never asked me for a thing, and I know you didn't ask to get saddled with a messed up kid in the first place and I kind of latched on.
Ha. Sorry about that. I always saw you as someone I could go to for guidance, and you were never turned off by my age, or treated me like a kid. You always believed I could do whatever I set my mind to, or at least that's how you made me feel. It was hard to get a read on you sometimes, Still, I consider you family. I'm really glad Bucky came back for you, and that you don't have to be alone anymore. I know you're strong, but you don't have to do it all yourself. I know you know that, but still. Thought I should at least say it.
Take care of things. (I already know you will, Captain. :) )
Carl
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Lup,
I'm glad I got to know you and your brother. Even though you scared the shit out of me in the woods and I'm still not over that, by the way! If I ever had a big sister, I'd want her to be like you. I learned a lot about magic from the two of you, but you made me think about it in a different way, and I'm still bummed I couldn't learn it. Still, you kind of made me feel like I could do pretty much anything if I wanted, and it made me feel like a badass. I know you'll take care of each other, because that's what family does, and I'm sorry I couldn't be around to be some weird tag-along for it. The restaurant felt like family to me.
I know I really don't need to tell Taako because he does what he wants, but anything I left behind? Feel free to take it. Especially since I owed you one for that luck charm. I wanted it to be a surprise, but could you give it to Loki for me? I kind of wanted to give it to him as a birthday present. He never really had one before, and I don't know if he was going to pick a different one, and if he did already, didn't tell me.. but I was going to share mine with him. (It's the 24th of July in case you're still around then?) Just tell him Happy Birthday for me?
Sorry I couldn't get you that Atroma toe, I really was going to try.
Carl
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Loki,
In case I'm not around when it happens, Happy Birthday. There's a lot that I want to say, so if this seems a little scrambled, that's why. I've never been good at organizing things.
I know you still think that people don't want to be around you, but they do. Thor wouldn't vouch for you so much if you weren't worth it- even if you are family. Like I told you, sometimes the best family you have is the ones you found and made your own. I still stand by what I said, too. You're family to me. You never really pushed me away, even when I was being annoying, and you never made me feel like what I did didn't matter, and that's always meant a lot to me. We saw kind of a lot of things about each other that we probably would never have shared before, but I'm not sorry I shared those things with you. You made me feel okay about the darker parts of myself.
Thank you for sharing everything with me that you did about Asgard. I wish I could have experienced more of them. You taught me a lot, though I don't know if that was your intention. Help yourself to anything I might have left behind- unless Taako has already taken everything. Ha ha.
Talk to Lup. She's supposed to give you something from me, though I don't know if she'll save it for your birthday or not. When anyone could go at any time, she probably won't. Either way.. It's a magic charm for luck. I hope it works, and I hope you like the colors.
I believe in you.
Carl
Hey boss. Sorry I didn't show up for work, you probably didn't worry too much, though. You'll do just fine without me because you're amazing at what you do. I really enjoyed the cooking lessons, I never really felt confident in the kitchen before, and you did that. For as much as I bitched and moaned at you for shit, I was never mad about it. I know that's how you show someone you like them, otherwise you'd have kicked my ass out by now.
I know you and your sister will take care of each other, but I'm going to miss you assholes, and I realize I never gave you a final decision on who the cooler twin was. Whoops, sorry about that. Wish I'd been able to learn magic and gotten to know the both of you more. You'll say it's sappy or gross, but I felt like you two were family, and I felt best when I was in the restaurant with you.
I really hope I get to see you weirdos again. Or.. anything, really. Fuck this shit, man.
P.S. You were starting to wear me down on that lip sync battle stuff. It could have been fun. :P
Carl
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Sora,
Thank you for being my friend. I always enjoyed being around you, and you always seemed to get me out of my head and remind me that there's light in most things. You're gonna do great whenever you get back home, and I know your friends are proud of you. I know I wasn't the easiest person to get to know, but you helped me start to trust people my age again. I didn't really have the best of luck making friends in my age group and you made it look so easy. I'm a little envious. I'll miss hanging out with you, and sorry we never got to go on that beach trip. I was looking forward to it.
Carl
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Natasha,
Thank you for everything. I know it's stupid and vague to say, but there's really no other way for me to describe it. You've honestly been the most consistent person in my life since I got to the Fleet, and I could never repay you for everything you've taught me. You never asked me for a thing, and I know you didn't ask to get saddled with a messed up kid in the first place and I kind of latched on.
Ha. Sorry about that. I always saw you as someone I could go to for guidance, and you were never turned off by my age, or treated me like a kid. You always believed I could do whatever I set my mind to, or at least that's how you made me feel. It was hard to get a read on you sometimes, Still, I consider you family. I'm really glad Bucky came back for you, and that you don't have to be alone anymore. I know you're strong, but you don't have to do it all yourself. I know you know that, but still. Thought I should at least say it.
Take care of things. (I already know you will, Captain. :) )
Carl
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Lup,
I'm glad I got to know you and your brother. Even though you scared the shit out of me in the woods and I'm still not over that, by the way! If I ever had a big sister, I'd want her to be like you. I learned a lot about magic from the two of you, but you made me think about it in a different way, and I'm still bummed I couldn't learn it. Still, you kind of made me feel like I could do pretty much anything if I wanted, and it made me feel like a badass. I know you'll take care of each other, because that's what family does, and I'm sorry I couldn't be around to be some weird tag-along for it. The restaurant felt like family to me.
I know I really don't need to tell Taako because he does what he wants, but anything I left behind? Feel free to take it. Especially since I owed you one for that luck charm. I wanted it to be a surprise, but could you give it to Loki for me? I kind of wanted to give it to him as a birthday present. He never really had one before, and I don't know if he was going to pick a different one, and if he did already, didn't tell me.. but I was going to share mine with him. (It's the 24th of July in case you're still around then?) Just tell him Happy Birthday for me?
Sorry I couldn't get you that Atroma toe, I really was going to try.
Carl
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Loki,
In case I'm not around when it happens, Happy Birthday. There's a lot that I want to say, so if this seems a little scrambled, that's why. I've never been good at organizing things.
I know you still think that people don't want to be around you, but they do. Thor wouldn't vouch for you so much if you weren't worth it- even if you are family. Like I told you, sometimes the best family you have is the ones you found and made your own. I still stand by what I said, too. You're family to me. You never really pushed me away, even when I was being annoying, and you never made me feel like what I did didn't matter, and that's always meant a lot to me. We saw kind of a lot of things about each other that we probably would never have shared before, but I'm not sorry I shared those things with you. You made me feel okay about the darker parts of myself.
Thank you for sharing everything with me that you did about Asgard. I wish I could have experienced more of them. You taught me a lot, though I don't know if that was your intention. Help yourself to anything I might have left behind- unless Taako has already taken everything. Ha ha.
Talk to Lup. She's supposed to give you something from me, though I don't know if she'll save it for your birthday or not. When anyone could go at any time, she probably won't. Either way.. It's a magic charm for luck. I hope it works, and I hope you like the colors.
I believe in you.
Carl
